I enjoy a nice alcoholic beverage now and then. For my own personal reasons, I rarely drink in front of the children. I have no problem with an occasional drink while working. My boss is pretty cool like that. I call it a job perk of having a home office and myself as a boss!
I don't know if I ever have ever had a drink before 8am though. Today was a good day for that. I don't know what happened in our house, but everyone was exhausted and cranky this morning. And I was simply not "mom" enough to handle it this morning. I was nervous and trying hard not to be nervous, but to be bold about my doctor's appointment. For some reason, it just didn't seem possible for everyone just to get ready nicely and let me have a morning off to myself to do some deep, calming breathing. So yes, I drank a beer this morning as my breakfast. I can honestly report that it was not nearly as good as eggs and toast for the first meal of the day!
At the doctor's office, my morning turned around. I had brought my manila folder with my research and I pulled a chair up to the examination table, like it was a conference table. My very wonderful doctor pulled up his chair, and we talked it all over. He is such a good man! I skipped over some papers, and he was curious: did I have more questions?
We now have a game plan. Yes, all the things I'm looking at are very connected. So it can be difficult to tell where things first went wrong. So we are going to try one thing for a few months. If it doesn't work, we'll delve deeper with tests until we find whatever we need to find. I gave the man a hug with tears swelling up in my eyes and thanked him for not thinking I was crazy. He smiled and reassured me that we will get me back to normal.
I didn't tell the good doctor about my beer for breakfast. I don't think he'd care. He's a very understanding man who cares about his patients and understands they are human.
Tonight I am thankful for a game plan. I am trying not to get too excited. This first step might not work. If that is the case, we have a Plan B to try a step another direction. Hopefully this first plan will work. I hope, I hope! If it doesn't though, I am thankful that I have a doctor that I trust that is going to work with me and not stop until we get things right!