I operate as if a key element in dealing with stress is to never look it right in the eyes. I just keep pushing thru stressful times, not giving the stress any attention.
I looked back today, just to give myself some point of reference. I thought I got insanely busy with work in March. It looks like it actually started in February.
I talk very positively to myself. I can do it. I can do it. Keep trying! It's ok if this one's late; take the break you need; now back at it! Go, Go, Go! Bend, don't break.
I just keep looking ahead. Eyes on the prize, right? See the goal with a plan for the hurdles. Until . . it's too much. I don't like to admit I can't handle things. But, that is part of being a responsible, grown-up, right? Know your limits and have good people to turn to.
I really thought this would be the week that I got ahead. But it wasn't. It wasn't even close. In fact, I've spent most of the week behind due dates.
Today, I've had a few break throughs about recent events.
#1) Although I've had some improvement, I really do still suck at scheduling. I took a good look at my calendar and realized a flaw. I do not account for any of my desk time or block off time for family time and sleeping. I use the calendar for things outside the house . . which is better than before. But, our calendar is filled up with things outside the house. If I can't account for the other important times, than there is a problem.
So just like my recent Dave Ramsey budgeting lessons of telling money where to go instead of money just finding it's way out - I am putting up a renewed effort to get better at this scheduling thing and I'll be telling my time how to be used. I hate, absolutely HATE the thought of having my time micro-managed. But, I need to do it because I am not leaving enough time for my sanity. So I need to take control here.
#2) I have two wonderful, smart, and talented ladies who work with me on my two different business ventures. I have the wonderful, smart, and talented hubster who works with me on his business venture. And I still do not ask for help enough. I tack things on to my to-do list while people who are there that could help me, are there ready to help me, waiting for me to ask. I think I've done a little better this week on this front.
#3) I really need to work on prioritizing myself. When I get too exhausted or too stressed, I take time out. But I push until I get to where I physically can not continue before I rest. That isn't right. And that isn't healthy. I do it with good intentions and while keeping in mind what goal I'm working towards. But people are made to require rest, not just sleep. I tend to count sleeping as resting, and it's just not the same. That may sound like simple logic to you; but it is really something that I need to remind myself of regularly.
Tonight I am thankful for yet another chance to learn to manage life better. I look back and see the stress that I put on myself. I don't plan on stopping really. Because I've got big goals. But I plan on managing it all better . . . and reaching my goals strong and healthily.