"It's not personal, (it's business)." "What is that supposed to mean? I am so sick of that. All that means is that it wasn't personal to you. But it was personal to me. It's personal to a lot of people. And what's so wrong with being personal anyway? . . . Whatever else anything is, it out to begin by being personal".
That is from You've Got Mail . . one of my favorite movies! Regardless if you like the movie or not, it's a good quote. We are trained to go to work and play a game and lose the personal aspect of ourselves to become a mold of what a "good employee" is. I can tell you right now that I'm always too personal. That plays in to my working for myself thing. I don't mold. And I don't play games well. Oh, and I have lots of opinions, a lot of questions and a big mouth ;)
Anyway, there are times when business being personal is hard. I would love to remove myself a little more from my day to day work sometimes. It's just not who I am.
This would play in to the constant re-setting I've been doing with myself lately. Tomorrow morning is court day. I know I'm right. I've felt mean and guilty for awhile. I reviewed my file and I've actually been extremely lenient and patient. I have no doubt I will ruled in favor of tomorrow. I'm not worried about that. I'm not looking forward to being there and seeing the other people - if they show up. Then it gets personal. They've made it personal on several occasions.
Even personal, I'm still right. I have several documents to show that. I keep reminding myself of that. I tried to help them. But you can't save people that don't want to be saved.
Deep breaths . . deep breaths . . . perspective is key and reminding myself of facts. It'd be easier if I could switch off the personal aspect. Nope, not gonna happen though apparently.
Tonight I am thankful that something being personal doesn't mean being a push-over. If I could leave my feelings in a manila envelope and shove them in a drawer for tomorrow, I totally would! But, I can't. So tomorrow it'll be personal; it'll be business; and it'll be one more step to being over. I can't wait.