We are all human. We all have moments where we question what we are doing and why we are doing it. If we don't have a good "why"; then we have trouble with life. People are meant to have a purpose.
Right now, my "why" is changing. It's shifting from being behind to planning ahead. On the surface, we weren't behind on anything really. Rediscovering truths about debt shined a light on the fact that we were in fact behind. We weren't free to do as we pleased because "the borrower is servant to the lender". We are working on the house next. And while we work on that, life is shifting. So much is shifting.
It looks like nothing on the surface. This isn't the shifting change that is visible like when a tide changes and the waves show the new direction. This is a shift inside us. It is empowering and freeing. And at times, a little scary. When you in the chains of debt, you know where you are going - you are going to work and you are paying your bills. Or else you are going to be in a world of trouble. When those chains are gone, you have a whole world open up. Where to go now? So many ideas! The excitement peaks and ebbs. And it takes time. I'll be awhile because I get rather stuck in patterns of work, work, work! Especially now because I have so many plans that are to change so much! There is so much to do!
I look at my family, and it isn't just me. They are ready for new and exciting things too! We've been on this journey together! And we are ready for the next adventure together!
Two steps forward and one step back sometimes. Or so it seems. I get rather impatient with this in between stuff sometimes. I try to keep in mind that this in between stuff is a very important part of life!
Then there are moments like today when I am reminded that we are right where we need to be. If we had skipped over this journey or if we were to skip this in between stuff right now; we would be lacking because of it. I'm watching my daughter, who made a very responsible, very mature decision, deal with the stress of standing up to questions about her decisions. And she is rocking it. It is wearing her down a bit. But she's doing amazing! I am so proud!
We are all where we need to be to learn to be strong and steadfast, faithful that God is always with us and there to help even when we do mess up in life!
Tonight I am thankful for the journey of life, yes. Tonight though, especially for our recent journey. We are all learning and growing as a family. And that is invaluable!