I have been hearing a lot about being intentional. This is being talked about in the coaching, the videos, the discussions that I have been involved in to learn more about how to be better.
And I can tell you, it is spot on. It is probably impossible to improve anything, myself, a system, a plan, my family, my health, anything; without being intentional about it.
The last two weeks I have had a hard time with this. Guess what? It is hard to be intentional (like the good kind of intentional with though and purpose) when you are emotional. And I use "emotional" very broadly. Anxiety, depression, worry . . all these just bury intentions.
It makes me believe that i am on the verge of something great. Have you ever felt that way? Like the devil is trying hard to throw me off my path . . . why is he trying so hard? What's around this next bend? It's gotta be something amazing, or he wouldn't care!
So here I am. Two weeks later and I've got a mess around me. I'm not beating myself up at all. This was a mess. And it is done. And while I was working on that mess, I let the rest of life become a mess.
As I have logged in this blog for the past many years, I work too much. Working too much before was intentional. We had an awesome goal and we nailed it! Now, I am working on NOT working too much. And I have to be intentional about it. Because my intentionally working too much was for so many years, it is now a habit. Working 80+ hours a week is my norm, my trained reaction, and my comfort zone. But I don't want it. And this is the year for that to change.
I had made some good strides towards that so far. And these past two weeks, I've just lost them. I didn't stick to any of the procedures that I've put in place. I was just on autopilot.
I hadn't listened or read any of my Entreleadership stuff for the past two weeks because I was so stressed. And I really didn't want to try and handle any new ideas. But today while I was driving around, I tuned in. And they were talking about being intentional. Yep . . . I needed to hear that.
Earlier this week I written about the decision to help myself a little again by sleeping enough, eating right, exercising, etc. And now I'm taking it a step further. It is time to be intentional again in every area. Because I really can't be intentional about much else when I am working so much.
Tonight I am thankful for being intentional. It is a decision. A well thought, and well felt decision put in to action. I'm getting back on my path ;)